Took a selfie in @joelxmichael’s bathroom.
I guess I can only blame myself. That hope I knew was false has been confirmed. I feel so low, pathetic, useless, and fucking insane. On one hand I’m proud I didn’t do anything drastic tonight. On the other, it’s unfortunate because now this will only continue to hurt me, every day, every night, until I finally end it.
What I’m really terrified of is leading an average, ordinary life with a regular job and an invariable routine, planned holidays, an average household, fixed responsibilities and not doing anything different to be remembered by.
wanna make a secret handshake it involves us touching our mouths together for three hours
Well take me, take me back to your bed
I love you so much that it hurts my head
Say I don’t mind you under my skin
I’ll let the bad parts in, the bad parts in